Friday, March 12, 2010

Imprisoned will





Imprisoned will is a sense of being denied; a sense of existence within a context of opposition – in which the will tends to harden in self protection and acts callously in self interest. It makes its own version of love that serves to work ‘inside the imprisoned sense of life’ – but this love demands the conditions of self-will to be sacrosanct – or it turns instantly to betrayal and hate.

A sense of limitation can become an accepted set of parameters in which such a sense of a separate life is played out in whatever seeming scenario that involves, and this can vary over more or less dense or confining circumstance, as long as it allows the sense of a freedom to assert and indulge a personal will; to assert judgement.

The self imprisoned mind works to maintain its fantasies so as to minimise its awareness of the discomfort of limitation – and wants to believe it is in fact an independent will expressing a wish for freedom. Yet what this mentality creates as its own experience of reality is simply the active denial of shared will – and shared being - in preference to creating in its own image. Such is the nature of sin. But until there is awakening, here also is the nature of ignorance.

For we do not know the truth of our own being, while we enact a script that arises from the desire to judge - in which we play out the roles of judge and judged; winner and loser; killer and killed. We lose recognition of reality’s love, light and guidance, in the preference to ‘see’ only what we can get from any perceived situation or relationship. A strategic intent to define life in terms of what we can make of it.

Life then takes on the meaning we choose to give it. We maintain such a will, against the flow of the nature of being, and we suffer the loss of an awareness and appreciation of Soul - of life abundant. We starve ourselves of the joy and peace that is our original nature, and become ever more rigidly identified in a fixity of thought and form until we ‘die’.

For we experience, as if we have stolen our life by imposing our own will, and lose the intimate innocence and eternal creativity of being. The consequence is not somewhere down the line as punishment – but instantly - as the perspective of preferring a partial experience of an aspect of life - rather than be in, and of, and as; flowing wholeness. Seperated experience is got from an imaginitive overlay, set in a largely unconscious opposition to the current movement in the heart.

A change of mind is a simple re-evaluation arising from a fresh perspective, yet to the mind that calls on, uses and accepts guilt, there can be no fresh perspective. It believes it is condemned by the power of judgement - such is its god. And it sees separated entities and things in hollow or lightless aspect and forces relationships upon life that have no felt relatingness. For such a mind there can only be the exploitation and management of a separated or fallen world in which all seems to compete for a fragile and fleeting existence. For that is its experience of self.

Opening to a simple willingness to receive - without precondition - as an expression of trust – for even a moment – can allow a reconnection at the heart that restores the heart's perspective to perception in glimpses of awakening that can be felt as salvatory and miraculous. For such is the experience of love to the mind that wakens from lovelessness.

From valuing and growing in such a shared love, grows a willingness and capacity to look at the mechanism in mind - as it operates – so that the conditions of freedom and imprisonment become clearly shown. So much of what we believed freedom was in fact the means to keep our mind in darkness. So much of what we believed was failure, limitation or conflict becomes the means by which we are restored to true freedom - the freedom to be all that we are – and to accept and express shared will – the present and spontaneous movement of the heart in trust.

To recognise that we but imprison ourselves is a similar step to an addict acknowledging addiction.
From such acceptance can all else be restored - such as our desire discovers, in alignment with the awakened shift that released us from fantasy and moved in us as both the call for love – and its answer.

The result of imprisonment believed, expresses as loss, bitterness and a self diminishment – from which one then acts out in reaction. Yet to use the opportunity of any kind of experience of imprisonment to learn of the true nature of freedom, restores peace, humour and compassion. Such are the flowing treasures of life and such cannot be taken from a mind – without collaboration from 'the inside'. Whatever the world or the other seems to do, look to your own heart’s direction.

When we have done our time, eternity welcomes its own.
But first restores our use and experience of time to serve the way of the heart.
Thus we can recognize what can be shared – and appreciate the experience of sharing – letting all else fall away of itself. There is much opportunity to learn and share of life eternal – here within the limitation to a world and self-sense of limitation. Not least of which – is that 'I do not want to indulge the experience of limitation as it costs me the appreciation of living truth'.

And that the Unlimited nature of being is not attained or won or gotten - but is the Birthright of Creation

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In Peace

Brian

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