Jonathan Linneman God’s Capital S Self
I do not know what the title of this should be if there is a title, but I know that the Capital S Self knows and for now let us call this experience of writing or putting down words that the Capital S Self is telling me to write a dialogue. It is a dialogue with that what I am and what I appear to be writing down the words that come into my Conscious Awareness.
I am told that this could also be a Q and A session as well, but it can also just be spontaneous in the moment but I know I am doing this to connect with my Capital S Self and that is where I choose to place my attention.
I was listening to my Self through the a person who is called Paul that this Individuality that Paul allows to speak through him is given the name of Raj and who is known as Jesus and He was speaking to us through what is known as A Course in Miracles and some of the things that were being communicated that I Know as my Self to be true is that there is only one real Self and that is You. You are the Son or Daughter of God and that is your Capital S Self. In your right mind which is the Holy Spirit or another Name for your Capital S Self, you are God and at the same time you are You. This is what is meant by the statement or the Teaching “The Father and I are One. There is only One. Your individuality that is called You is the expression of that One and so every Individuality there is, is the expression of that One called God.
You are what God is being as you right this very moment. There is nothing that you can be but what God is being in you and as You. There is nothing of You but God, because you are Gods Self expression without this Self Expression God does not exist. The Father and the Son is You is One.
You cannot have a creation a Son or Daughter without there being a Creator a Source of being. There is not a Father without there being a son and there cannot be a Son without there being a Father. God and Creation and Father and Son they are the same thing. One God that Father and the Mother is the Cause of being and the other is the Effect of being. Yet the Cause and effect of being are not separated they are one and the same thing and at the same time this very moment because in reality this is the only real moment you have and this moment is eternal without end and without beginning.
The Self that I am in my Totality is the same Self that you Are in your Totality which is infinite and eternal. The other self that appears to you to be this puny mortal that lives and dies as a piece of matter is not you. It is part of your imagination that you still believe is you most of the time. It is the one where you can only see a body and a mind or intellect that has feelings and that still believes it is independent of everything and that means God and the You the Capital S Self you really Are.
There is this idea of two selves that you conceive that you both are, one that is independent and is carving a way into eternity or the future and if it has perfect control of everything will continue to exist until it is ready to die and if it is good will be able to establish a place for him or herself in the Kingdom of God in the hereafter. Poppy cock, that is pure imagination because you as you really Are already in the Kingdom of God because You are where God dwells, in You and as You, there is no one else. Your Individuality is not separated from the Whole of what God is being in YOU. You are the Kingdom of God. You are in your right mind the Presence of what God is being which is your Infinite Self beyond your imagination and presence sense of self which is what you call your limited you.
There are not two selves battling for a place next to Gods Throne, but only one Self that is true that is not imagined and that is not battling for Supremacy, because it is already Supreme in Gods Eye. This Self which is God’s Son or daughter and is You in your right mind is smiling in sweet repose. It is perfectly safe in the creation of God. It is all KNOWING because it embraces one Mind that is God. It is Love because it the Substance of what God is being. It is light because it is the Awareness of what God is being. This Light is the Awareness and in it the Recognition of all that God is being which is You in your Totality. This mind is universally aware and you are a point or a pure Spark of that Awareness in the Infinite Mind of God. You as God is are Oneness.
There is nothing else to really be other than a figment of your imagination dreaming a dream that you are what you imagine to be a alien self far removed from the universe of being living in a vacuum all alone trying to survive as a mortal, being vulnerable to all else living in a empty shell of nothingness.
God loves you right this very moment and has never stopped loving you and in this love recognizes His and Her Self in You. God is right now supporting you even in all of your vivid imagination and fantasy. God as the Holy Spirit does not support your illusions because they are not true, but God does support you as you really Are. Remember I am as God created me. I did not create myself or make myself. I am not making m self as I go along as some evolutionary creature, I am already created as God created me and because I am choosing to recognize God is perfect in my creation so I am as perfect as He or She. I lack for nothing in God as I am. I am complete.
So stop believing in what is not true and listen to your Capital S SELF or the Holy Spirit which is your true and Divine Nature that is held in trust as long as you choose to believe you are separated. Place your attention where it ought to me and in the Self that is you. The Holy Spirit is the voice for Truth it is the Word and all one needs to do is Stop, Listen and Learn. Stop the outer mind from suggesting to you over and over again what is not true and what is not to your benefit or the benefit of all others that are in your life by bringing your attention into the Silence of your being and listening in the Silence what the Truth that is yours is presenting to you in the moment of listening and learn from that Teacher of Truth that is You in your right mind by acting on the Movement that is being you each moment. Embody it as if it is the Truth that is You.
There is guidance for you and instruction which is beyond your present sense of self or perception and to the degree that you allow it to guide you. Follow the Guidance simply one step at a time and ask what is the Truth here, what is the meaning that I am not seeing in this thing or person that is before me. Let me see the Truth of what I am in this Holy Thing or child of God. Let me see the Christ of this One as the Holy son or daughter of God. I am one with her as she is one with me because we are all one Self in God. I am one Self with my Creator.
This guidance may or may not always come in some unearthly manner but may be mundane as far as your perception allows but behind it is the Power of God that will light up your universe and illuminate your mind. It may just be a simple gesture of some kindness toward one of you such as a “Hi, How are you?” Still, it will have the power of the universe supporting the action or the word that has the capacity to Awaken one as you. Remember it is not the word you speak but the meaning or the Consciousness behind the words and that Consciousness is always Love and with that Love comes the recognition that You and your brother are all the same Love that is being you and them all at the same time.
This illumination that will light up in you will also shine in your brother in their hearts and minds and with that light will restore to them their Sanity and at the same time restoring yours as well. There is only one Self in all of you as there is only one God in Everything, outside of which is Nothing and how could there be really nothing if God is all there is.
God not expressed is God non-existent. You are Gods creation God’s Self Expression and without you expressed in your Right Mind is no God. I am God’s Self Expression whatever God is being in Me as Me I am.
Is it at rest in the natural movement of being or is it constrained to attend to the thought we identify as giving us some measure of control over the movement of being?
In the latter, is a separation sense that disallows the comfort of resting in and AS being - excepting brief moments that are allowed - but always within a context of control that reinforces the mind that believes such control is both desirable and possible.
There is a tension of attention that makes a sense of opposition within itself.
Just as you cannot exert force to relax tense shoulders, so you cannot force reality to realign to your comfort- as you currently define and accept comfort.
Just as you can notice your shoulders are tense and simply relax those muscles in an instant, so you can notice the tension of attention and drop it immediately in terms of both desire and necessity.
Just as the outer symptom of a long held position of stress can take time to 'fall away' even when its core is released, so can the result of healed perception take time for health to reflect in form.
Attention is an instrument of being, naturally serving the function of being, at one with the flowing expression of the wholeness of being. Free to move its focus as love desire, in the extension and appreciation of love's ever new reality.
The apparent assertion of control is like an attempt to define and fix the Current of being to an assertion of desire that has no real basis - because it neither extends nor appreciates reality as it is.
To think unlike God is to deny our own being in preference for a game of imagined power in which we identify with loveless thought.
If you had the power to give yourself whatever you desire - and you have - then must you accept that only the wholeness of love can give you anything real - and so to desire as God moves you - is to release all notions of self attainment or self becoming and accept the current experience of being as the communication of the All in All.
If you are still thinking that thinking can follow me, then must this conversation 'die' to your desire.
But if you abide in the tension of attention while allowing the mind to rest, you 'Let Me be'.
The control that is the wisdom and guidance of discernment and love is never applied from a thought based assertion. But is the harmony and order arising from the spontaneous appreciation of Life as it is.
Love already knows its nature and its way. And it already knows the way of restoring you to your Self.
Understanding that the blocks are thought, and acceptance of fresh living Thought, is the way of coming to rest in wholeness regardless of outer appearance.
The surface mind can at any time reinstate its perspective as your own if you accept it, and from such perspective will all teaching or guidance seem as meaningless as is a mind locked in surface forms and self defined meanings.
If you would know peace, then it must become irrelevant to you.This is not something to do, but is a realisation of truth.
The nature of sin is false desire. Chasing things you thought you wanted. Running from things you thought you did not.
Truth seems to rise when we relax, just as armourings seem to fall off.
"Where is your attention?" is not a cause of judgement - but an invitation to release judgement - and rise in love.
Imprisoned will is a sense of being denied; a sense of existence within a context of opposition – in which the will tends to harden in self protection and acts callously in self interest. It makes its own version of love that serves to work ‘inside the imprisoned sense of life’ – but this love demands the conditions of self-will to be sacrosanct – or it turns instantly to betrayal and hate.
A sense of limitation can become an accepted set of parameters in which such a sense of a separate life is played out in whatever seeming scenario that involves, and this can vary over more or less dense or confining circumstance, as long as it allows the sense of a freedom to assert and indulge a personal will; to assert judgement.
The self imprisoned mind works to maintain its fantasies so as to minimise its awareness of the discomfort of limitation – and wants to believe it is in fact an independent will expressing a wish for freedom. Yet what this mentality creates as its own experience of reality is simply the active denial of shared will – and shared being - in preference to creating in its own image. Such is the nature of sin. But until there is awakening, here also is the nature of ignorance.
For we do not know the truth of our own being, while we enact a script that arises from the desire to judge - in which we play out the roles of judge and judged; winner and loser; killer and killed. We lose recognition of reality’s love, light and guidance, in the preference to ‘see’ only what we can get from any perceived situation or relationship. A strategic intent to define life in terms of what we can make of it.
Life then takes on the meaning we choose to give it. We maintain such a will, against the flow of the nature of being, and we suffer the loss of an awareness and appreciation of Soul - of life abundant. We starve ourselves of the joy and peace that is our original nature, and become ever more rigidly identified in a fixity of thought and form until we ‘die’.
For we experience, as if we have stolen our life by imposing our own will, and lose the intimate innocence and eternal creativity of being. The consequence is not somewhere down the line as punishment – but instantly - as the perspective of preferring a partial experience of an aspect of life - rather than be in, and of, and as; flowing wholeness. Seperated experience is got from an imaginitive overlay, set in a largely unconscious opposition to the current movement in the heart.
A change of mind is a simple re-evaluation arising from a fresh perspective, yet to the mind that calls on, uses and accepts guilt, there can be no fresh perspective. It believes it is condemned by the power of judgement - such is its god. And it sees separated entities and things in hollow or lightless aspect and forces relationships upon life that have no felt relatingness. For such a mind there can only be the exploitation and management of a separated or fallen world in which all seems to compete for a fragile and fleeting existence. For that is its experience of self.
Opening to a simple willingness to receive - without precondition - as an expression of trust – for even a moment – can allow a reconnection at the heart that restores the heart's perspective to perception in glimpses of awakening that can be felt as salvatory and miraculous. For such is the experience of love to the mind that wakens from lovelessness.
From valuing and growing in such a shared love, grows a willingness and capacity to look at the mechanism in mind - as it operates – so that the conditions of freedom and imprisonment become clearly shown. So much of what we believed freedom was in fact the means to keep our mind in darkness. So much of what we believed was failure, limitation or conflict becomes the means by which we are restored to true freedom - the freedom to be all that we are – and to accept and express shared will – the present and spontaneous movement of the heart in trust.
To recognise that we but imprison ourselves is a similar step to an addict acknowledging addiction.
From such acceptance can all else be restored - such as our desire discovers, in alignment with the awakened shift that released us from fantasy and moved in us as both the call for love – and its answer.
The result of imprisonment believed, expresses as loss, bitterness and a self diminishment – from which one then acts out in reaction. Yet to use the opportunity of any kind of experience of imprisonment to learn of the true nature of freedom, restores peace, humour and compassion. Such are the flowing treasures of life and such cannot be taken from a mind – without collaboration from 'the inside'. Whatever the world or the other seems to do, look to your own heart’s direction.
When we have done our time, eternity welcomes its own.
But first restores our use and experience of time to serve the way of the heart.
Thus we can recognize what can be shared – and appreciate the experience of sharing – letting all else fall away of itself. There is much opportunity to learn and share of life eternal – here within the limitation to a world and self-sense of limitation. Not least of which – is that 'I do not want to indulge the experience of limitation as it costs me the appreciation of living truth'.
And that the Unlimited nature of being is not attained or won or gotten - but is the Birthright of Creation
This is a mental key and because it is a major key which always represents some aspect of the soul or Spirit it is all inclusive. Remember the 22 major keys represent the soul or Spirit and they are immutable and unchangeable. They are eternal principles or laws of being.
This card is the conscious mind and how the conscious mind operates within the Mind of God or Divine Mind. It is the mind of choice. Nothing happens in your experience unless a choice is made either of a spiritual nature or material. The wand represents where ones attention is. Attention is where one experiences his choices which start out as an idea in the mind of God and then expressed as a thought which if accepted will manifest in the world of experience.
This is You in your conscious aspect of Self. There is a conscious, subconscious and superconscious relationship of mind or consciousness. The Fool is you in your Superconscious aspect of Self and the High Priestess is You in your subconscious aspect which is memory.
The color yellow in the background is mental because on this level of mind all is mental that is a universal principle of mind.
The Magician is Mercury messenger of the Gods and He is able to transmute the lower elements in to the Higher and its wand points to Heaven which is Key 0
Each one of these Keys or Divine attributes which is based on the 22 letters of the Hebrew alphabet symbolize consciousness or Intelligences that are Divine Activiies that are in Universal Idea that are in motion.
This key is thought to be the Intelligence of Transparency meaning the mind is transparent and when it is purified by right thought based on Divine Idea and is still it reflects perfectly one’s Divine Relationship with the All. The Light is the Truth of what is being, because it is the visibility and the tangibility of what is Real Spirit or Infinite Mind. With this Key one can be a perfect channel of Divine Inspiration or Intuition which makes everything whole or seen whole.
There is a relation between Lilly’s and the Roses. The lilies represent Divine Ideas that come from the Fool or the Superconsciousness and are able to transmute the lower order where human desire is experienced and its effect on the material plane.
This is the card of choice or attention. It is the objective mind with the desire to know itself or the Truth of Mind. It is also the Co-Creator card with God.
With the wrong choice there also comes identification with what one chooses makes for illusion and the dream. With the proper choice based on discernment of what is Real one immediately dispels illusion.
This is the Idea of having creative power to manifest Self through Divine Ideas is what is behind this Key! This again helps to understand the basis of the Tarot on the Tree of life the Star of David. This 6 pointed star illustrates the axiom, “As above, so below and as below so above or what is within is without until you experience the last key of the world all is one.
The colors are very significant in the Tarot as well as the symbols and in this case we see a figure in white with a robe in red. White is purity of mind and red is Mars which is activity meaning and action must take place before anything can manifest. The action is choice.
The green leaves are growth and the white or gold wand is also purified in terms of the direction the Magician attention is on.
The infinity symbol above the Magician is an eternal idea and means that The Self that the Magician really is, is timeless and the Magician is also wearing a belt or is girded with a symbol of the snake swallowing its tail.
Mind is eternal as Spirit and so everything there is in creation is an eternal Idea in the mind that caused it to be. What is not timeless or eternal does not really exist only as an illusion which is temporal and therefore can be changed into the perfect Idea that the illusion is a distortion of. All illusions are misperceptions of what is true or distortion from the Truth.
An example would be light is Truth. It is always there though temporarily hidden by clouds or ignorance. Darkness cannot over see the Light, but Light oversees the darkness. Light is truth, darkness is illusion.
Ask yourself what is the Truth in Everything. What is eternal and what is not. Let your thoughts be ordered by what is truth, learn discrimination. Let every unhappy or fearful thought be replaced by a happy thought which can be learned by the Holy Spirit or the Superconscious State of Mind.
The tablein the Key is earthy and so everything takes place on the material plane.It holds on it four
These four symbols also represent the four elements. The Wand is Fire of Ideas, Swords are air or thoughts and the sword is double edge meaning lower order of thought and higher order of thought. The Cups are water or emotions and feelings. Feelings are responses from within and emotions are reaction to what is without. Pentacles are Earth and it is what you materialize and your control over the material plane.
This Key is all about what you are manifesting, Divine Order or opposite chaos.
This is the key of creative power and who you use it or abuse it one leads to Mastery and the other to being mastered.
This is the Hebrew letter Beth which means House or shelter. Your mind holds everything you think and is where everything is experienced. All takes place within. There is nothing without. The Magician is a personification and a vehicle of Light. Everything that the Magician is comes from the Fool.
You who were created by love like itself can hold no grievances and know your Self. To hold a grievance is to forget who you are. To hold a grievance is to see yourself as a body. To hold a grievance is to let the ego rule your mind and to condemn the body to death. Perhaps you do not yet fully realize just what holding grievances does to your mind. It seems to split you off from your Source and make you unlike Him. It makes you believe that He is like what you think you have become, for no one can conceive of his Creator as unlike himself.
Shut off from your Self, which remains aware of Its likeness to Its Creator, your Self seems to sleep, while the part of your mind that weaves illusions in its sleep appears to be awake. Can all this arise from holding grievances? Oh, yes! For he who holds grievances denies he was created by love, and his Creator has become fearful to him in his dream of hate. Who can dream of hatred and not fear God?
It is as sure that those who hold grievances will redefine God in their own image, as it is certain that God created them like Himself, and defined them as part of Him. It is as sure that those who hold grievances will suffer guilt, as it is certain that those who forgive will find peace. It is as sure that those who hold grievances will forget who they are, as it is certain that those who forgive will remember.
Would you not be willing to relinquish your grievances if you believed all this were so? Perhaps you do not think you can let your grievances go. That, however, is simply a matter of motivation. Today we will try to find out how you would feel without them. If you succeed even by ever so little, there will never be a problem in motivation ever again.
Begin today's extended practice period by searching your mind for those against whom you hold what you regard as major grievances. Some of these will be quite easy to find. Then think of the seemingly minor grievances you hold against those you like and even think you love. It will quickly become apparent that there is no one against whom you do not cherish grievances of some sort. This has left you alone in all the universe in your perception of yourself.
Determine now to see all these people as friends. Say to them all, thinking of each one in turn as you do so:
I would see you as my friend, that I may remember you are part of me and come to know myself.
Spend the remainder of the practice period trying to think of yourself as completely at peace with everyone and everything, safe in a world that protects you and loves you, and that you love in return. Try to feel safety surrounding you, hovering over you and holding you up. Try to believe, however briefly, that nothing can harm you in any way. At the end of the practice period tell yourself:
Love holds no grievances. When I let all my grievances go I will know I am perfectly safe.
The short practice periods should include a quick application of today's idea in this form, whenever any thought of grievance arises against anyone, physically present or not:
Love holds no grievances. Let me not betray my Self.
In addition, repeat the idea several times an hour in this form:
Love holds no grievances. I would wake to my Self by laying all my grievances aside and wakening in Him.
Good evening. And welcome to everyone who’s joining us on the Internet. We’re starting a new section entitled:
THE REWARD OF [HEALING] TEACHING1
And in the first edition and the second edition, the wording was changed and I feel it’s important to share the difference. It reads:
We have already learned that everyone teaches and teaches all the time. You may have taught well, and yet you may not have learned how to accept the comfort of your teaching.
Now, when I was dictating this to Helen, I did not say, “We have already learned that everyone teaches and teaches all the time.” And I did not say, “You may have taught well.” Here’s what I said:
You have taught well, and yet you have not learned how to ACCEPT the comfort of your teaching.
Now I shared this because as I said it to Helen, I was speaking directly to herabout her. And it was an abrupt shift in context. In the first edition, a segue was given:
We have already learned that everyone teaches and teaches all the time. You may have taught well, and yet you may not have learned how to accept the comfort of your teaching.
Now, that reads well for subsequent readers of the Course but I want it to remain as pointed as it is in the Sparkly Book, the way I said it to Helen:
You have taught well, and yet you have not learned how to ACCEPT the comfort of your teaching.
Now, I’m going to be very frank: Anyone who has studied the Course, and anyone who has been in any way involved in teaching it or sharing it with others, with explanation, this statement would apply to you:
You have taught well, and yet you have not learned how to ACCEPT the comfort of your teaching.
Now the reason this is true—and its part of the meat and potatoes of this whole section we’re reading—the reason I say that is because if you have not joined with the Holy Spirit and shifted your allegiance to the Holy Spirit so that you are in communion with . . . so completely in communion with the Holy Spirit, so completely that you’re no longer holding yourself apart as someone leaning into or depending upon the Holy Spirit, then you still have the comfort of what you’ve been teaching to be embodied, embraced, and to have moved you into a new experience of your identity—no longer an orphan, period. So: [or] . . .
You have taught well, and yet you have not learned how to ACCEPT the comfort of your teaching.
You haven’t embraced it completely enough to have done this most difficult thing called letting go of control—of abandoning the practice and exercise of control. You haven’t arrived at the point where, in doing so, you find that chaos has not occurred, but rather, pure peace, pure safety, pure security in a context of living love that is the environment of your being and of all things. Now. . .
If you will consider what you have taught, and how alien it is to what you thought you knew, you will be compelled to recognize that your Teacher, . .
. . . that being the Holy Spirit, . .
. . . came from beyond your thought system, and so could look upon it fairly, and perceive it was untrue. And He must have done so from the basis of a very different thought system, and one with NOTHING in common with yours. For certainly what He has taught, and what you have taught through Him, have nothing in common with what you taught before He came. And the results have been to bring peace where there was pain, and suffering has disappeared, to be replaced by joy.
The reason it’s important to understand this is because your experience of the Holy Spirit communicating with you, addressing you in language that you can understand and that means something and is transformational to you, this is experienced in the very same place where you have done all of your orphan-minded thinking, you would say, that you hear the Holy Spirit in your mind and you think in and with your mind. And so, hearing the Holy Spirit is occurring in the same place. And yet, what you hear is entirely different from what you, as the orphan you thought you were—taught, believed and “understood.” So, it can seem as though you’re experiencing two selves: One, yours—the orphan you’ve always been, who’s learning new wonderful things—and another Mind, another Presence in the same place. Another Self that thinks differently from you and yet speaks with you, embraces you in a way that you haven’t been embraced before and treats you in a way that transforms you without causing you to feel great guilt. Now, what I have taught you as we have been moving through this book, is what the book has told us: That the Holy Spirit is nothing more than your right Mind. Therefore, this is not another self, let’s say, a self that is part of the Holy Trinity, which is very different from mankind, the Holy Spirit is nothing more than your right Mind. So it would seem that in your mind there are two selves: This One that teaches like you’ve never taught before, and the you that you think you are who takes up most of the space in your mind with all of your thinking. Why is this important? It’s important because salvation lies in a simple shift from where you’re giving your allegiance—what you’re valuing. It’s not complicated. It doesn’t require complex learning processes. It constitutes a simple behavior and the most significant one is the easiest one. And that is the practice of neglect. Neglect is effortless and it’s the one thing essential to Waking up. What do you neglect? You neglect to value and practice thinking. You neglect to make so much noise yourself that you can’t hear anything, which then makes it possible for you to hear effortlessly. Now, it’s time for you to stop having an “understanding” of the principles of A Course In Miracles. It’s time for you to be through having these understandings that you can easily share and rationalize about. It’s time for the intellectuality of the Course to be neglected because it’s essential for what you’ve been learning to be embodied. Now, does that mean through effort of your own? No. It means by indulging in the two-step: Stepping back, hesitating . . . stepping back, not acting immediately out of habit, and asking, “What is the truth here?” Asking of the Holy Spirit, asking of That which is nothing more than your right Mind which, as long as you are pretending to be an orphan, is the Voice for God—the Voice for Truth. The Holy Spirit in you is the Voice for God—the Voice for Truth. It’s That of you which you’ve disowned because you’ve said “Hey, I would rather have charge of things and make things happen on my own and become somebody by virtue of what I’ve done.” That’s all.
You have taught freedom, but you have not learned how to be free.
You see, you can talk a good talk but you haven’t learned how to embody it and actually be free. You still haven’t found it of more value than anything else to be constantly enquiring of the Holy Spirit, to know how to be, what to say: “What is happening? What’s the truth here?” I have told Paul, “Let me respond to everything.” Now, I have the same function as the Holy Spirit, whether it’s with Paul, or any of you. And so, when I say, “Let me respond to everything,” I’m not asking him as he sometimes believes, to defer to someone else—to become nothing himself, and just always be the mouthpiece or the actor, acting out someone else’s desires. I’m not. That is not what I am when I say, “Let me respond to everything.” I am saying, “Be Still and let me reveal your responses, the you that you divinely Are. Let me share those with you. Let me guide you in using your own true voice and your own true mind, to be in your daily experience so that you might come into a feeling of less awkwardness around this, so that you come into a feeling of its naturalness, so that you don’t resist it or feel that it’s not really you, or it’s better than you.” The point is that you have to let down your intent. You have to withdraw your intent to enact things, authorize things, be the cause of things, so that you might be able to join with the Holy Spirit or with me, and have your true Being and your real Mind illumined for you so that you might lean into It—It being the real You. And as a result of that, feel the naturalness of It and allow yourself ultimately to stay there without asking for my help. This is the point and this is when the comfort of your teaching will be experienced by you.
You have taught freedom, but you have not learned how to be free. We once said, "By their fruits ye shall know them, and they shall know themselves." For it is certain that you judge yourself according to your teaching. The ego’s teaching produces immediate results because its decisions are immediately accepted as YOUR choice.
You accept them as YOUR choice. And that’s why you have the visibility and tangibility immediately of the ego’s thought system—belief system, etc. But, if you turn to the Holy Spirit and ask: “What is the truth here? What should I say here? What is the appropriate way for me to be right now?” And you let that flow, you will have the immediate results because you’re willing to say and acknowledge that it’s your choice. That’s the point! That’s the shift we’re talking about. Where, when you listen for the truth and you express it, you don’t treat it as though it’s some third person event, but rather a first person event. And they are your words and they are your choice. You say, and Paul does too, he says: “I want to know the truth above and beyond my pet theories and best concepts; I want to know the truth.” And I share the truth and he hears it and shares it and lets it be the truth that Raj has shared and does notget thecomfort of the truth he has shared that he would get if he claimed it as his choice, if he knew that it was his choice. That the silly thing is; that he asked to know what the truth was. He wants to know the truth—that is his choice. You see? And you do the same thing. And it’s very important when the truth is revealed to you that you acknowledge that it’s your experience of truth. Not someone else’s. And that to know that truth is your choice. And the truth that is being said will have its instantaneous immediate results when…you…let…it…be…your choice. Because that’s the way it works. When it’s your choice, you’ve got it. When it’s your choice, you get it. Everyone says they wish they were wealthy. Well they don’t wish they were wealthy because if that was their choice, [snaps fingers] they would instantly be wealthy.
The ego’s teaching produces immediate results because its decisions are immediately accepted.
. . . I’m going to add, by you . . .
. . . as YOUR choice. And this acceptance means that you are willing to judge yourself accordingly. Cause and effect are very clear in the ego’s thought system because all your learning has been directed towards ESTABLISHING the relationship between them. And would you not have faith in what you have so diligently taught yourself to believe?
Of course, you’re too proud to do otherwise. All orphans are.
Yet remember how much care you have exerted in choosing it’s witnesses, and avoiding those which spoke for the cause of truth and ITS effects.
So what is this saying? It’s saying that you have to pay attention. It’s mandatory that you pay attention to how you’re using your mind so that you are not using it against what you want and thereby denying you the experience of your Birthright as a holy Son or Daughter of God and of the Kingdom of Heaven that is what you are in the middle of.
Does not the fact that you have not learned what you have taught . . .
. . . this meaning, the truth that you’ve been teaching, the truth that you’ve heard by virtue of doing the two-step and listening and hearing . . .
Does not the fact that you have not learned what you have taught show you that you do not perceive the Sonship as one?
You say . . . “Well, Raj said it.” And some of you may say, “Well, Paul said it.” If you’ve heard the truth and you recognize the truth, it’s yours. It’s not someone else’s. And yet, the fact that Raj said it and Paul voiced it and you heard it and you claimed it, that demonstrates that the Sonship is One. Because you’ve let it be One. You haven’t held part of it away from you. “Well, that’s what Raj said. I know it’s the truth but it’s the truth that Raj said.” You keep it at a distance. It needs to be embodied, incorporated. It needs to be owned. You need to let your mind be changed in the sense of recognizing yourself in a declaration of truth that comes out of your mouth as a result of Revelation. It’s that simple and its that beautiful.
Does not the fact that you have not learned what you have taught show you that you do not perceive the Sonship as one? And does it not also show you that you do not regard YOURSELF as one? For it is impossible to teach successfully wholly WITHOUT conviction, and it is equally impossible that conviction be OUTSIDE of you.
Yeah . . . I know. If you let the truth come from the Holy Spirit—that which is nothing more than your right Mind—and you let it come through your mouth and it is beautiful and it is healing and it is incredible . . . well, that’s going to say something about you, isn’t it. That might disclose your holiness, which, you’re not sure you really want—you’re not sure you want anybody to think that well of you. They might start leaning on you, they might start making demands on you and so on and so forth. They may give you credit which you would appreciate, but in giving you the credit, they may start to lean on you and that part of it is not so hot. So you keep it in the third person. You keep it at a distance and you don’t let it show as you, you don’t let yourself feel it as you. And that’s the call. That’s the shift. You see, it’s not just an intellectual shift of ideas where you suddenly grasp the truth as opposed to the error. It’s a shift in you that affects your experience of your identity. It renders you holy and if you allow it, you will embrace your holiness with gratitude, you see? . . with embrace, without resistance, in a way that allows the experience to be identified to you as you, thus changing your experience of yourself.
You could never have taught freedom unless you DID believe in it. And it must be that what you taught came from YOURSELF. And yet, this Self you clearly do not KNOW, . .
. . . this capital “S” Self . . .
And yet, this Self you clearly do not KNOW, and do not recognize . . .
Again:
And yet, this Self you clearly do not KNOW, and do not recognize It even though It functions.
Your holiness, your divine mindedness is ever present and always functioning. And it’s always functioning as you experiencing yourself as that. But you’ve lost the direct experience of it because you have chosen for awhile—too long awhile—to play at being an orphan who has a capacity to do things on its own.
What functions must be THERE.
If you ask the Holy Spirit a question and you get an answer, the Holy Spirit must be there. Simple. Now, if the Holy Spirit responds and you hear it, and the Holy Spirit is nothing more than your right Mind, then you have clearly experienced yourSelf, even though you don’t recognize It as such. And so it’s necessary to reiterate it as I’m doing tonight. And it’s necessary for you to remind yourselves so that you don’t easily forget and you can keep doing what will promote your Awakening rather than doing what will prevent it.
What functions must be THERE. And it is only if you deny what it has DONE that you could possibly deny its presence.
This is a course in how to know yourself.
That’s it!
This is a course in how to know yourself. You HAVE taught what you are, but have not let what you are teach YOU.
You do . . . even when you’re acting as an orphan, you do express love. Love is something the ego, the orphan, is incapable of expressing. Love doesn’t exist in it. But even though you’re claiming to be an orphan, you do express love. But you haven’t let the love that you’ve expressed teach you. You haven’t been willing to acknowledge that that love is divine, that it has its Source in God. And that it’s expression through you is an expression of God through you. And that’s why when it is genuinely expressed it heals. And then you say, “It was a miracle. God performed a miracle.” See, as though you weren’t involved. Oh, course, you don’t want to be too involved in that kind of thing, you know. But you don’t want to suffer sin, disease and death. So you’ve got to become clear and you’ve got to stop standing on both sides of the fence. That’s what this is about.
You have been very careful to avoid the obvious, and not to see the REAL cause and effect relationship that is perfectly apparent.
[Repeats] You have been very careful to avoid the obvious, . .
. . . the obvious is that you’re the Son of God or the Daughter of God. And you haven’t not wanted . . .
. . . to see the REAL cause and effect relationship that is perfectly apparent.
. . . in the Son or Daughter of God.
Yet within you is EVERYTHING you taught. What can it be that has NOT learned it? It must be this that is REALLY outside yourself, not by your own projection, but in TRUTH.
So . . .
What can it be that has NOT learned it?
Well, it has to be this fanciful sense of selfhood—of independent selfhood—that doesn’t really exist in actuality. And that’s why it must be outside yourself. You see? And it’s not outside yourself by your own projection. It’s outside of you because it has to be outside of you. It doesn’t exist. It doesn’t exist, therefore, its being outside of you is not a projection. It is the truth.
And it is this that you have taken in that is NOT you. What you accept into your minds does not REALLY change them. Illusions are but beliefs in what is not there. And the seeming conflict between truth and illusion can only be resolved by separating yourself from the ILLUSION, and NOT from truth.
So, how do you separate yourself from the illusion? By not creating the illusion through continued thinking and reasoning that starts from a faulty premise. There’s only one way to separate yourself from illusion and that is, to neglect to energize and seem to create a false sense of self with rights and capacities, abilities that it couldn’t possibly have because God didn’t create it. And how do you do that? You do that, as I said last week, by shutting up, becoming silent. In the silence, the conscious awareness that you Are, continues to be what it Is, the paying of attention—attentiveness. Attentiveness, you could say, is inquisitiveness. It’s an aliveness, an awakeness to Something. And in that attentive silence, the Movement of Creation that has been going on constantly, can register with you. Truth can register with you. You will call it Revelation. That’s how you separate yourself from illusion. You join with the Holy Spirit by neglecting to energize the ego you thought you were, the ego that you have been taught that you are. Hmmm. . . that means coming humbly. You see? Arrogance doesn’t exist in the quietness of your being. Arrogance, authoritativeness, willfulness does not exist in the silence—in the silence that is an attentive conscious mind.
Your teaching has already done this, for the Holy Spirit is part of YOU. Created by God, . . .
[Repeats] Created by God, He left neither God nor His creation. He . . .
. . . the Holy Spirit . . .
. . . is both God AND you, as you are God and Him together. For God’s answer to the separation added more to you than you tried to take away. He protected both your creations and you together, keeping one with you . . .
Paul: I’m sorry . . .
. . . keeping one with you what you would exclude.
This is important.
He . . .
. . . the Holy Spirit . . .
. . . is both God AND you, as you are God and Him . . .
. . . the Holy Spirit . . .
. . . together.
Now, I’ve said before, that you are not God, but God is all there is of you. Therefore, where you are, God is all there Is. You see, there’s a unity and an integrity: You, the Holy Spirit and God are One. And that One is God. The incredible perfection of Being, the incredible perfection of all existence becomes available to you to experience when you let you, the Holy Spirit and God be all there Is, and that being God. What does that mean? It simply means that you neglect to reenergize and reinforce your thinking, all of the past results of your thinking, all of your memory and you say, “I know nothing of myself. I never have known anything of truth of myself. And as a result, my experience of being the Son of God has been a troubled one, a difficult one, a painful one, a sick one, and I don’t want to have that experience any more. And so this me, who I have tried to build up into a big voice, is going to become silent and just be the presence of Mind that can recognize things. And I’m going to let the silence endure until it’s filled with what God is filling it up with, until everything that God has been filling it up with registers with me.” That’s your prayer. That’s the practice. And it’s practicing this that will bring you back into the comfort of your teaching, the one that you’re not yet experiencing, but you need to be, you should be, you deserve to be. Will you yield to God? Will you defer to that which is nothing more than your right Mind? When I ask the question, it sounds a little silly. Will you be willing to defer to that which is your right Mind? “Well, yeah, why wouldn’t I?” Well, why aren’t you? But that’s the call. And so, instead of pretending that you know everything, you need to start asking, “What is everything?” You need to become curious again, full of vibrant attentiveness and expectation. You won’t find that as long as you’re looking to yourself and relying upon yourself. And life is not going to be joyful. But life is going to be joyful because more and more individuals are getting it. And as a result, more and more individuals are willing to lean into their Source, lean into their right Mind, lean into the Brotherhood, do exactly the opposite of what has caused an experience of orphanhood, which is separation—a holding of oneself apart. You see, that’s where the neglect comes in. Neglect to reinforce that. Neglect to value it.
What you accept into your minds does not REALLY change them. Illusions are but beliefs in what is not there. And the seeming conflict between truth and illusion can only be resolved by separating yourself from the ILLUSION, and NOT from truth.
And again:
Your teaching has already done this, for the Holy Spirit is part of YOU. Created by God, He left neither God nor His creation. He is both God AND you, as you are God and Him together. For God’s answer to the separation added more to you than you tried to take away.
Such love, such love that you are constantly being held in, nurtured by and kept eternal while you pretend to be a mortal enjoying the thrill and the challenge of getting the most that you can before you die, and becoming the most that you can before you die.
He protected both your creations and you together, keeping one with you what you would exclude. And they will take the place of what you took in to replace them. They are quite real, as part of the Self you do not know.
The Self that you claim not to be, the Self that is the holy Son of God, that you would rather nobody knew you were. You see?
And they communicate to you through the Holy Spirit, . .
. . . your creations . . .
. . . and their power and gratitude to you for their creation they offer gladly to your teaching of yourself, who is their home.
You see? Your teaching of yourself . . . your teaching of yourself is your accepting the comfort of your teaching. Everything is teaching you about yourself, because everything is the visibility and tangibility of your Individuality. And your Individuality is the Presence of God. Come on . . . this week please . . . please be willing to embrace your holiness. Please stop denying it. Please stop resisting it. Please stop covering it up. Now, being holy is not a behavior. So you don’t cover it up by a different . . . you don’t be holy by adopting a new behavior. You be holy by neglecting to use and reinforce the orphan mentality. You stop covering it up by engaging in the two-step. You stop covering it up by letting yourself be in your right Mind. And you let yourself be in your right Mind by what? By desiring to Know from It. That’s how. You will find yourself knowing from It, if you will neglect to do so much thinking and so much talking and so much asserting. Now you may not be too happy with what I’ve shared. It may sound like work. It may sound like work that is not very satisfying. But I’m going to ask you: How satisfying is sin, disease and death? How satisfying is it, even if you’re very young, to be able to think, “Oh, I’ve got sixty years to go before I’ll die. I have plenty of time to live.” How do you like that? You shouldn’t even have that thought in your mindset, because the holy Son of God is the direct manifestation of God and is therefore as eternal as God. Please, again, value being Awake. Value it enough to pay attention so that you stop doing what keeps you from Waking up, so that you neglect to do what keeps you from Waking up. And I don’t usually ask this, but I’m going to suggest and ask that you read what we’ve covered tonight at least once a day to remind you where your attention needs to be, so that you don’t get lost and so that you don’t have unnecessary misery, and so that maybe you’re lifted out of the whole frame of reference in which misery goes on, because you’ve let God’s perspective be yours, which it always has been even though you’ve been ignoring it. I love you very much. And I will be with every single one of you this week in support of your making the shift. And I look forward to being with you next time.
A Course In Miracles (reference pages)Chapter 16 – Section – THE REWARD OF TEACHING1 Sparkly Book – p.383 / JCIM – p.161 / CIMS – p. 322First Edition – p. 311 / Second Edition – p. 334
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